i fucking hate september and myself. yes. this is an emo blog so fuck you you cunt who probably doesnt like me at all fuck you. ive found i have very few true friends. all i seem to have is mikey, nikhi, matt brett and dan. all of my old group and friends have dumped me despite all of my efforts to meet up. im so fucking sorry im not like a normal 16yr old girl and cant hang out whenever i want. i have 2 fucking people 2 support atm on 1 income and i like between about 5 fucking houses. im always exhausted and the fact ive stopped cutting seems to make people think im ok. no, i just dont want to lose mikey. avy died. im crushed. the 1st time i was shattered and the 2nd time i was sad but now its hit n its hard ansd now ginny rats died. everything sucks. you know what fuck you. especially montana from skool you cunt 'im so cool' wanker stain. i hate you. currently babysitting my niece who because of a certain someone playing an important role in her life, she is throwing unacceptable tantrums and showing behaivious exactly like this other individual. pretty much only feel settled at nikhis atm but even then like im imposing. i do regularly get a feeling like i wasnt meant 2 b born. i wasnt able 2 be concieved normaly, im ivf. and im always out of place and feel like im not supposed to be here. pretty big indicator. one thing my brother said to me and has stuck. 'some people arent made 4 this world'.